Earlier this year, my husband and I were in the middle of making a pretty big life decision. While it certainly wasn’t a life-or-death thing, it was big enough that it would have an impact on our daily lives.
We deliberated over the issue, going back and forth between two options, neither of which were inherently “bad” or morally wrong in any way. Still, the decision kept me up at night, fixated on making the “right” choice. At one point I grumbled to my husband, “I wish someone would just make this decision for us so we wouldn’t have to!”
That murky gray area, I believe, is where God challenges us to be truly led by His Spirit. Sometimes we can’t just point to a Bible verse and know exactly what to do. Sometimes we can’t just crank out a pro/con list and solve the problem.
Sometimes we have to wade into the thick of it with God—that area where we are clueless on our own and desperate for His wisdom and guidance.
Despite my frequent and frantic prayers for guidance during this decision-making process, I still lived in fear of making the “wrong” choice. Surely this was a test and I must pass it! I slowly started to understand, however, that instead of feeling trapped by my decisions, I could feel freed by God’s grace.
God tells us in His word that He goes before us; He levels mountains and makes crooked places straight. He is not bound by our decision making. I started to realize that my view of God was disproportionately small, and my view of myself was disproportionately large. Praise the Lord that the universe is not being upheld based on my decision-making abilities!
If you are worrying over a decision right now, small or large, then let me gently remind you that God already has this whole thing planned out. He is generous to give us wisdom when we ask for it. And when we do take a path that isn’t best for us, which we inevitably will, He will be there to guide us back towards Himself.
Let’s be encouraged by the words of Jesus in John 10:28 when He tells us that no matter what, we will never be snatched from His loving hand. In every season, and in every decision, He is faithful.
“I will lead the blind by ways they have not known,
along unfamiliar paths I will guide them;
I will turn the darkness into light before them
and make the rough places smooth.
These are the things I will do;
I will not forsake them.
• Isaiah 42:16 •
Megan Hogg is a follower of Jesus, a wife to Josh, and a speech-language pathologist living in Raleigh, North Carolina.
She is learning to navigate her twenties with the help of her friends, iced coffee, and lots of grace.
You can find her blogging at A Continual Feast.