Sometimes I wonder if I will ever feel like I am finally enough. I secretly always thought it would happen when I got married, or maybe when I found a job that I loved. Now I have both of those things and I still think to myself at the end of each day–Did I do enough? Was I competent at work today? Did I love my husband well? Was I a good friend?
There is something in me that constantly pokes and prods, nagging me, telling me that if I just worked longer hours or was a nicer person or stopped getting annoyed at little things, then I would feel like enough.
There is a big problem with that line of thinking, and that is that it isn’t consistent with the Gospel.
The Gospel is that we were separated from God because of our sin and could never do enough good deeds to restore ourselves to Him, so He sacrificed Himself (Jesus!) in our place to make the necessary atonement. Once we accept Jesus, we stand justified before a holy God.
It’s funny how shocked I am, time and again, at how relevant the Gospel is in my day-to-day life. Without an understanding of the grace of God, I am left striving for something I can never achieve. I am left making checklists and plans of what I can accomplish in order to feel like enough. The bad news/good news is that I am not enough, but Jesus is.
When I lose my temper–He is enough.
When I make a mistake at work–He is enough.
When I am anxious about the future–He is enough.
When I am full of envy and discontentment–He is enough.
His grace is always enough.
This–this incredible grace–is the only engine that can fuel my walk with Jesus. He is enough, so I don’t have to be. I can’t be anyway. All I can do is rest in His grace and accept His righteousness on my behalf.
God made Him who had no sin to be sin for us,
so that in Him we might become
the righteousness of God.
· 2 Corinthians 5:21 ·
Megan is a follower of Jesus, a wife to Josh, and a speech-language pathologist living in Raleigh, North Carolina.
She is learning to navigate her twenties with the help of her friends, iced coffee, and lots of grace.
You can find her blogging over at A Continual Feast.